In the great scheme of things __ I believe that Blessings should be for everyone who goes to our Heavenly Father in prayer __ I think that in the end we shall all discover that we all serve the same God no matter what name you choose to call him__ Our Heavenly Father is a kind and forgiving person and we all have been given free will to choose how we serve him while here on EARTH.___ I have a question for you that someone ask me the other day: It confused and made sense all at the same time....... When you die, Are you going HOME to be with the Father?  Think about that for a moment....... If you are going HOME -- then you have already been there --- you must have you are going HOME..... you are just on loan here learning how to make your way back there through what ever deed you choose ___ and the choice is yours --- Our Heavenly Father Gave us Free Will......... Made me think about a lot of things .... Does it you?

Your Day

My best friend gone but not forgotten........

As your Birthday draws near --- my mind drifts to you and all that might have been had you not been tragically taken from us......     Happy Birthday Johnny

We carried out your wishes --- just as you would have wanted and I kept my part of the promise...... I think you would be pleased....... 

   Dirty Blonde

When I die

Burn m y body

Take my ashes

Over the mountains
And the seas

to the places

I have lived

Sprinkle some among

 The people I use to know

Who I love

 _And sorrows leaving Only

 All the love my Heart has carried._

 And who loved me for

 there my soul shall rest

 At last - let some linger

In the breeze blowing 

 them distant places

 Where my shadow will 

Hide my Doubts........

 Courtney Love

You are missed more than any words could ever express......

As you Wish It to Be

       Revenge is a kind of wild justice.........Francis Bacon

This post is at best random - to say the least and at the heart of an issue that has been on my mind for some time now-- I will not go in detail about the issue however I need to get somethings expressed for I think I have now come to terms with them and can more clearly see how I feel since I have gotten past the anger.....

Friendship means understanding not agreement.  It means forgiveness, not forgetting.  It means the memories last, even if the contact is lost.... When friendship and/or relationships do not last forever, it doesn't mean it wasn't worth your while......

I think and believe that everything happens for a reason and while I do not always like the outcome of certain things -- I cling to the most certain faith that there is a stronger purpose for what has happened.... A friendship lost can be a most painful thing however it can be one of the most positive things too... If you take a moment to stop and be still --- just pay attention to what God is trying to tell you, often times what you will find is the greatest gift of all..... He was opening a new door... He was showing you a new way.... We get so bogged down in our friendships sometimes that we miss what is going on in our lives --- especially spiritually and God has to find a way to get our attention.... especially if that friendship is TOXIC....  I went  through something recently that I did not understand ... I was angry .. I was hurt .... and I wanted revenge.... yet as I got up this morning to a somewhat dreary rain soaked Sunday morning --- I had a different attitude about the situation.. . While I do not wish to go back in time to this friendship (it was very toxic) I do see that at one point it was of great value and does hold some good memories...... However in the blink of an eye --- something happened --to me it felt so tragic... God stepped in --- healed my heart --- and I know that there is something better for me --- I know there is a purpose for what happened and I know God will take care of it.... 

I am moving on... while I will never forget our childhood and the memories we shared.... going back isn't an option --- I feel finally I have said goodbye to that part of my past ---

In You

In the picture posted below: is a dear friend who passed away a few years ago to lung cancer. That picture is the last picture we ever took together -- It was on the 4th of July at Ocean Springs Beach -- Michael James was an exceptional man with great morals and values.  He is missed everyday by not just me but by those whom he barely knew-- he had a way of touching people with a smile or a nod, his way of letting them know they mattered even if he knew them not.... He opened his heart and his home to many, and was a lover of animals.... the year MJ passed away -- he was held at gun point by a young man and robbed -- this man spared MJ's life -- all the while his life was in danger Michael talked with calm ease to this young man and witnessed to him.... what a hero -- is this why GOD spared him on that day.... Although CANCER finally took his life ... it never took his spirit.. his famous word were always this "LOVIN LIFE,LIVIN THE DREAM"...... on any given day he would tell you this no matter his pain... he was an inspiration to many... The day he called me and said I need a babysitter and laughed -- I knew it was time.... for more than a month I did just that sit and listen and care for him and in an odd turn of events for once in our friendship I was the confidence booster, shoulder to lean on, care taker -- he had to let me be the strong person (he was such a man) -- He said his goodbyes very matter of fact like and in the end maintained his dignity... I said good bye on a Wednesday night -- with a kiss because he came to asking for sugar -- who knew -- and my friend and I lay our heads on his hands and he drifted back to sleep..... never to wake again.... On this day he is much on my mind and somewhere I know he is smiling and happy for I know he is in heaven......

Father's Day Approaches

A real parent makes sacrifices in life to ensure their children are happy, healthy, well taken care of, & would do ANYTHING for their children.They always come first & ALWAYS WILL. A parent loves their children unconditionally no matter what they have done or what they can do. It Takes More Than Blood To Call Yourself A Parent!

                 History of Father's Day...

It would be interesting to know how Father's Day came into practice and celebrated worldwide with an equal sincerity and respect as any other significant holidays. Here's a short history on the holiday, and meaning of the different colors of roses to be worn that Day. You may even refer the page to others to share the information by clicking on the link given below.

http://www.theholidayspot.com/fathersday/history.htm

About 4,000 years ago a young boy named Elmusu wished his Babylonian father good health and a long life by carving a Father's Day message on a card made out of clay. No one knows what happened to Elmesu or his father, but the tradition of having a special day honoring fathers has continued through the years in countries across the world.

The Countries, where the Catholic Church were of significant influence on the culture of the society, Father's Day is celebrated on St. Joseph's Day (March 19). However, a more secular celebration which is not associated with any religion is followed in recent times to highlight the increased diversity among people from all over the globe coexisting together in one place.

Father's Day is celebrated popularly on 3rd Sunday in June in many parts of the world. The idea for creating a day for children to honor their fathers began in Spokane, Washington. A woman by the name of Sonora Smart Dodd thought of the idea for Father's Day while listening to a Mother's Day sermon in 1909. Having been raised by her father, Henry Jackson Smart, after her mother died, Sonora wanted her father to know how special he was to her. It was her father that made all the parental sacrifices and was, in the eyes of his daughter, a courageous, selfless, and loving man. Sonora's father was born in June, so she chose to hold the first Father's Day celebration in Spokane, Washington on the 19th of June, 1910.

In 1924 President Calvin Coolidge proclaimed the third Sunday in June as Father's Day. President Nixon, in 1972, established a permanent national observance of Father's Day to be held on the third Sunday of June. So Father's Day was born as a token of love and gratitude that a daughter cherishes for her beloved father. Roses are the Father's Day flowers: red to be worn for a living father and white if the father has died.

The love and care of a father is as essential as sunlight is in our lives. It is his protection that shelters us, his care that nurtures us, his guidance that leads us and his love that fills us with joy. Father's Day is the day to pay tribute to that wondrous creature called the Father. Great people all over the world have, from time to time, praised their own fathers; pondered over the greatness of fatherhood and commented on what goes on to make ideal Fathers.... I call my Dad ... Grandfather(he is in heaven now)...

Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad.
~ Anonymous

 As Father's Day gets closer I find myself missing my grandfather and my birth-father.  I guess to some this would sound very strange but then again with the way life is in our society today maybe not so much... See my mom and dad were divorced when I was fourteen/fifteen years of age... My birth-dad missed a lot in my life... I think for many years I wanted to blame him ... I think perhaps I did... then I blamed my mom... I shouldn't have.. She shouldered the load just about all alone but by the grace of my GRANDFATHER.... (who is now in heaven)... these are things that weigh heavy on my heart this Father's Day... I am now 41 and this issue of divorce and absent Fathers still grabs at my heart and tugs at my soul like it were yesterday that my very own father walked away.  He divorced my mother yet somehow it felt more like he divorced my mother and me...For when he left he left... When I realized that this was the way it was to be I spent my days trying to build a wall around my heart so that no-one could touch that place that he had hurt.... In my humble opinion when parents divorce they should remember that it is the children they should strive to keep peace for and in spite of each other... The money, the fighting , the blame game only sends out a message of hurt and anger to the child...In my case my father was gone and did not return to my life on any stable level for many years... and when I say stable I mean one time maybe two times a year since my daughter was born (she is twenty now)...  I have come to accept this although it still hurts and I think I have demolished my own personal relationships due to but not in spite of this.... I love my birth- father very much and I believe he loves me however I don't think he comprehends the true meaning of just what a FATHER is and or how to be one for he never has had to be one (at least not with me or my sister)... 

Maybe my ramblings do not make a bit of sense, maybe I seem like a mad woman at 41 for rambling here and now however this is me and my stuff..... and on Father's Day -- I wanted to give a little history for history sake and I wanted to say ... Happy Father's Day (to my MOM) (my grand-father who is now in Heaven) and also to (my Birth-Father) for although he was not present for many years and we still have unresolved issues he is who he is and I do love him..... 

Blessed Be

Breze

You calm the troubled waters of my weary soul

You've held my hand and gave me strength

When surely I thought all reality had left me

You've prayed with me

You've cried with me

And become my friend

Surely God must be

Smiling in Heaven 

For my Heart is Full Again....