Sometimes, Someone says, Something really small but it fits right into this empty space, in your heart....

Priority

While you have been my priority………………..
I have been just your option ……..

On any given day/night I am here
Thinking of you
Wondering if you will call
Perhaps come by..

On any given day/night you are out
With the guys
Living it up thinking of just you
Never stopping to think
Of me Alone
At home (loving you)…..

So today - I am saying
I have an option too
I want to be a priority
I deserve to be at the top
Of things on your list to do



I am not an option
I am not a convenience
I am a strong loving woman
Who wants and needs
To be loved in return

Not just an option
You can randomly drop
In on from time to time

Words can hurt
Or lend relevance to
Any given situation

Am I just an option
On any given night
To you or am I more

Time to make a choice
Choose your words with care
Remember your actions
Will tell on you…  
  
                                 1, July 2010 Kathey Buchanan\\ ©

Through the Mist

I don't understand
And I am tired of trying
The long lonely nights
The constants fights
The blame game
One more time trying again

This time it is overwhelming
The fog that fills my brain,
Is heavy, hindering my view...
To see clearly...
I must keep looking ahead
Towards that small clearing
Through the mist...

Then and only then will
I find me again....
I can no longer be
The person you are trying
To CREATE........

copyrights katheybuchanan 9/12/2009

Love is as strong as death....

The most precious possession that ever comes to a man in this world is a woman's heart ----- Josiah G. Holland

Full

You calm the trouble waters

 of my weary soul

You've held my hand

And gave me strength

When surely I thought

All reality had left me

You've prayed with me

You've cried with me

And became my friend

Surely God must be

Smiling in Heaven

For my Heart is

Full again........

Your Day

My best friend gone but not forgotten........

As your Birthday draws near --- my mind drifts to you and all that might have been had you not been tragically taken from us......     Happy Birthday Johnny

We carried out your wishes --- just as you would have wanted and I kept my part of the promise...... I think you would be pleased....... 

   Dirty Blonde

When I die

Burn m y body

Take my ashes

Over the mountains
And the seas

to the places

I have lived

Sprinkle some among

 The people I use to know

Who I love

 _And sorrows leaving Only

 All the love my Heart has carried._

 And who loved me for

 there my soul shall rest

 At last - let some linger

In the breeze blowing 

 them distant places

 Where my shadow will 

Hide my Doubts........

 Courtney Love

You are missed more than any words could ever express......

There you Were...............

A lifetime of hurt

Disappointment and Failure

That haunts each day

Going through the emotion

Smiling politely

Paying bills

Keeping up the appearance of normal

Then out of the blue

 You (in a different light)
That same friend
Now seen through new eyes

How could it have taken 
So long to see  

That all I ever needed

Was standing, all along

Right in front of me.................

(c)kathey buchanan 2010 august

Father's Day Approaches

A real parent makes sacrifices in life to ensure their children are happy, healthy, well taken care of, & would do ANYTHING for their children.They always come first & ALWAYS WILL. A parent loves their children unconditionally no matter what they have done or what they can do. It Takes More Than Blood To Call Yourself A Parent!

                 History of Father's Day...

It would be interesting to know how Father's Day came into practice and celebrated worldwide with an equal sincerity and respect as any other significant holidays. Here's a short history on the holiday, and meaning of the different colors of roses to be worn that Day. You may even refer the page to others to share the information by clicking on the link given below.

http://www.theholidayspot.com/fathersday/history.htm

About 4,000 years ago a young boy named Elmusu wished his Babylonian father good health and a long life by carving a Father's Day message on a card made out of clay. No one knows what happened to Elmesu or his father, but the tradition of having a special day honoring fathers has continued through the years in countries across the world.

The Countries, where the Catholic Church were of significant influence on the culture of the society, Father's Day is celebrated on St. Joseph's Day (March 19). However, a more secular celebration which is not associated with any religion is followed in recent times to highlight the increased diversity among people from all over the globe coexisting together in one place.

Father's Day is celebrated popularly on 3rd Sunday in June in many parts of the world. The idea for creating a day for children to honor their fathers began in Spokane, Washington. A woman by the name of Sonora Smart Dodd thought of the idea for Father's Day while listening to a Mother's Day sermon in 1909. Having been raised by her father, Henry Jackson Smart, after her mother died, Sonora wanted her father to know how special he was to her. It was her father that made all the parental sacrifices and was, in the eyes of his daughter, a courageous, selfless, and loving man. Sonora's father was born in June, so she chose to hold the first Father's Day celebration in Spokane, Washington on the 19th of June, 1910.

In 1924 President Calvin Coolidge proclaimed the third Sunday in June as Father's Day. President Nixon, in 1972, established a permanent national observance of Father's Day to be held on the third Sunday of June. So Father's Day was born as a token of love and gratitude that a daughter cherishes for her beloved father. Roses are the Father's Day flowers: red to be worn for a living father and white if the father has died.

The love and care of a father is as essential as sunlight is in our lives. It is his protection that shelters us, his care that nurtures us, his guidance that leads us and his love that fills us with joy. Father's Day is the day to pay tribute to that wondrous creature called the Father. Great people all over the world have, from time to time, praised their own fathers; pondered over the greatness of fatherhood and commented on what goes on to make ideal Fathers.... I call my Dad ... Grandfather(he is in heaven now)...

Any man can be a father. It takes someone special to be a dad.
~ Anonymous

 As Father's Day gets closer I find myself missing my grandfather and my birth-father.  I guess to some this would sound very strange but then again with the way life is in our society today maybe not so much... See my mom and dad were divorced when I was fourteen/fifteen years of age... My birth-dad missed a lot in my life... I think for many years I wanted to blame him ... I think perhaps I did... then I blamed my mom... I shouldn't have.. She shouldered the load just about all alone but by the grace of my GRANDFATHER.... (who is now in heaven)... these are things that weigh heavy on my heart this Father's Day... I am now 41 and this issue of divorce and absent Fathers still grabs at my heart and tugs at my soul like it were yesterday that my very own father walked away.  He divorced my mother yet somehow it felt more like he divorced my mother and me...For when he left he left... When I realized that this was the way it was to be I spent my days trying to build a wall around my heart so that no-one could touch that place that he had hurt.... In my humble opinion when parents divorce they should remember that it is the children they should strive to keep peace for and in spite of each other... The money, the fighting , the blame game only sends out a message of hurt and anger to the child...In my case my father was gone and did not return to my life on any stable level for many years... and when I say stable I mean one time maybe two times a year since my daughter was born (she is twenty now)...  I have come to accept this although it still hurts and I think I have demolished my own personal relationships due to but not in spite of this.... I love my birth- father very much and I believe he loves me however I don't think he comprehends the true meaning of just what a FATHER is and or how to be one for he never has had to be one (at least not with me or my sister)... 

Maybe my ramblings do not make a bit of sense, maybe I seem like a mad woman at 41 for rambling here and now however this is me and my stuff..... and on Father's Day -- I wanted to give a little history for history sake and I wanted to say ... Happy Father's Day (to my MOM) (my grand-father who is now in Heaven) and also to (my Birth-Father) for although he was not present for many years and we still have unresolved issues he is who he is and I do love him..... 

Blessed Be

Breze

Part of Me

You cross my mind
You enter my thoughts
I see your face
I hear your laugh
Your smile dances across my mind
Like a slow motion picture
And
I long to hear your voice
I miss you 
More it seems than 
Time should allow...
My heart feels a longing for you 
And I know
You will forever be 
A part of me...

@KatheyBuchanan29,march,2004

Acting As If

You toss and turn

Reach for me

Toss and turn again 

I reach for you

We fight ourselves

In this friendship

We pretend to control

Yet we fall back to each other

As if it's all we have

Ever known...

I pretend I won't fall

As do you

Yet

Here we are

In the night

Holding each other

Laughing 

Talking

Sharing

Acting As If---?

__________________________________________

copyrights katheybuchanan

Color

If my heart

Could remember

The color

Of our love

Maybe

Just maybe

Memories would

Flood my soul

Crowd my mind

And

I'd swim among

The living again

Until that time

I remain

Colorless

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 Copyright ©2009 Kathey Green Buchanan