About Me

It is hard to write about yourself -- because either #1. I feel like I am bragging, #2. I just don't know where to start -- but here goes any way --- it started way back in 1968 when I was born in a small town called Pascagoula, MS --- just kidding -- I wouldn't do that to you guys.... but it does prove that I have a sense of humor....

Ok just to get this out of the way I am gonna post a little saying , poem what ever you would like to call it right here first:

My head pounds and swishes
Like it has its own heartbeat
It swirls with water like vibrations and
I feel as if I'll fall to my knees.
The room starts to spin --
And I find myself holding on
Is it fair to ask you to stay for the ride
When even I'm not sure if 
I can be strong...

To begin with, I have what is know as Pseudo Tumor Cerebri... What is this you may ask:
Pseudotumor cerebri literally means "false brain tumor." It is likely due to high pressure within the skull caused by the buildup or poor absorption of cerebrospinal fluid (CSF). The disorder is most common in women between the ages of 20 and 50. Symptoms of pseudotumor cerebri, which include headache, nausea, vomiting, and pulsating sounds within the head, closely mimic symptoms of large brain tumors.
Treatment:(my case)
Therapeutic shunting, which involves surgically inserting a tube to drain CSF from the lower spine into the abdominal cavity,  to remove excess CSF and relieve CSF pressure. 

Also I have a little thing called Fibromyalgia:
Fibromyalgia syndrome is a medical condition that is difficult to diagnose and has no known cause. Symptoms center largely around pain throughout the body, fatigue and cognitive impairments. Although there is no definitive cure, the symptoms of fibromyalgia syndrome can most often be effectively managed to maintain quality of life.
There is speculation that fibromyalgia syndrome is connected to some combination of sleep disorders, physical trauma, immune system malfunction, dysfunction in the central nervous system and genetics.

Ok so now that we have that out of the way --- those are the things that would keep me from posting for short periods of time:  I try not to let my illness run me.  I am a very strong minded person and very capable of many things although these two illnesses have taken a toll on me -- I struggle to stay on top and not let it get the better of me.

So what you see on my blog is really ME for the most part --- I am a variety of thing -- including but not limited to a poet at heart, a wanna be singer/song writer and sometimes a clown... 
My family and friends mean the world to me however I do not trust easy yet when I let you in and call you my friend I mean it..... If that trust is ever broken __ I am pretty much done.... don't get me wrong I believe in second chances... but a fool I am not... soft hearted (YES) Stupid (NO)... 

I am a self proclaimed Bookworm --- I will read anything -- that grabs my attention within the first couple of chapters.... although I must admit when I buy a book if it just doesn't jump out and speak to me at the store I will not purchase it ..... I am strange that way..

I believe that everything and I mean everything was put here for a reason - it has a purpose and has value - my heritage has taught me that - show mother earth some love - that is not to say I am a loony about things it is just my beliefs on things and I stand firm..... I essentially believe that their is a higher power (I call mine Jesus) however when it comes down to it I will not argue you on your belief system to each their own....after all this is America.

The beach is one of my most favorite places to run to when I need a moment of rest and relaxation.. The sound of the ocean clears my mind and soothes my soul.